Blurry Vision
I’ve been having so much fun with my camera that it took me by surprise to have “one of those” days in which even as I pressed the shutter release button time and time again, nothing seemed to click. It took everything in me not to have a full on panic attack at this. I always want my clients to love their photos but, this girl right here, has been my voice student for a few years now and well, her happiness meant that much more. I really wanted her to enjoy her session and get photos that she is proud to share.
I had not been feeling well, physically and mentally. I’d been tired all week but, I thought it was nothing I couldn’t handle. While we were out in the middle of nowhere, I almost asked to reschedule. I wanted to cry! I’m so glad I was wearing a mask. It was so windy and inspiration was just not my friend. I also booked a bit too early in the day so there was that. Lots and lots of light or lots and lots of shadow. No in between. I did entirely too much thinking and not enough…breathing. Thankfully, I had my sister (and reflector holder extraordinaire) with me.
I gave myself some time before I sat down to edit. Eventually I began to smile at Mia’s smiles. I remember when she was just a tiny little middle schooler. Is she really about to graduate from high school? She’s always been a beauty - inside and out. Along with her fabulous mom and sisters, total fashionista. Her earrings, OMG how cute are they?! Her hair in the wind really is something else. Her colorful dress inspired me to play with sky replacements in Photoshop. I just had to find a way to sneak in a rainbow! The joy came and I tried my very best to infuse it into every one of the shots I was able to deliver.
I guess this is what trying to be a “professional” is all about. You have to somehow deliver even on the off day. I did end up being happy with the gallery. I learn something new in every session. I certainly try, anyway. If you ask me what I did right in the middle of all the chaos inside my head that day, was that I kept pressing that shutter release button. Time and time again. I took more shots than I usually do knowing I’d need them.
Tomorrow I’m heading on a little road trip to photograph a family of six. It will be in a location I’ve never been to before. I feel like I can totally do this. Still, wish me luck!